The Blessing
I never thought that trying to have a
second baby would be that frustrating- thwarted with the fact on second
infertility was making me a worrywart mommy. But I always believe that God has
his own cue on when the clock will strike at its finest. After almost a year of
trying finally I got two lines, but at first one line was fainted. Ronie
wouldn’t consider it as positive, so I bought a digital test. Fortuitously the
mark was PREGNANT. But I wasn’t contented, I bought 6 more tests and it all
says I am having baby. Yes I am having my second baby! And we are all blessed
and blissful!
First
Trimester
Unintentionally, I couldn’t help but
compare all the pregnancy symptoms that I experience with my first. Everything
seems so diverse. I had the worst sense of starvation. Even if I eat 6 mini
meals daily, my body can’t withstand it. I want more food with salty palate and
beefy diet. I had no cravings for ice cream, cakes or any sweet chow. My sense
of smell is getting odd too! I feel like I am transmuting to a dog that can
easily smell all species of bad whiff. My daughter Zethry is the only person
who smells so wholesome to me- I like to sleep by her and cuddle her all day.
Prenatal Check-up
I was on my 9th week when I had my first pre-natal
check-up. I had an afternoon appointment
with the most thorough OB check and the scariest blood test. I feel like I was
going through a blood transfusion. It was like having a faucet of red plasma
dripping out, filling 13 tubes for all types of test in this biosphere. It all went satisfactory except with my first
sonogram, which I find petrifying. At first the sonographer confirmed that I had an extroverted (tipped) uterus and she could not find the baby. My reaction was vexed but anticipative for God is with me. I was floating on my way to the 5th floor of the hospital building (OB department for high-risk pregnancy). And I took another ultrasound. The lady radiologist had a blank stare at the screen and it took her almost 30 minutes to scan thru my womb that had made me more bothered. The OB confirmed my EDC (estimated date of confinement) and redate it to July 8, 2014 instead of June 26, 2014 (another JULY birth?) The baby is still 7 weeks. I was teary-eyed hearing his/her heartbeat for the first time. Although the OB did not give me any explanation on my tipped uterus, I still feel safeguarded. Yet worried for she scheduled me to have an ultrasound again after two weeks then another one at three weeks after that.
I concede… I am agitated, anxious, concerned but I am setting my
feet aboveboard. I have to uncover my worries with positivity. Everything will
be on its precise route. I have GOD with me. He will guide us across all this
with His loving protection and compassion.
